Somewhere New, Goodnight

Eyes close, tonight; tightly shut
Now blackness becomes my world -
Twisting, churning in my vision,
Albeit holding fast and still.
My mind slips away from the dark
And colours fill my eyes, still shut.

Twirling, whirling, dancing scenes
Alive with colour and sound
Laughter, chatter, music, life
Familiar faces with grins
Welcome me home once again,
As I move on down the line.

Colours wash out and darken,
Now, a more familiar scene.
Sounds become dull and deepen
Dragging me in all the more.
Time swings backward and plays out
The same ol' thing, so new.

Everything shoots off, away
The image shattering like glass
Where once was the scene, so real,
Something new replaces;
Blood and gore, silence and bliss
Suffering revisted -

Oh, nasty habits, so crude
Visions of pain and bleakness
Where death and depression ensue
But to balance it out
A subconscious love, a need
Riddled with apologies

And then the alternate thoughts...
What may have been, could have been
But isn't and may never be.
It entertains me all the same,
And them - for them, indeed,
It is thought of only for them.

Minor regrets drift away
As the images replace
Rearrange, fade, rewrite -
Until satisfaction sets -
At least until another night.
My weary eyes now rest.

Goodnight.

Goodnight, my knight, my thief,
Goodnight, my prince, my demon,
My banshees and ghosts, my children,
Goodnight my golems and puppets,
Villains, monsters, heroines,
My underplayed - Goodnight to all.