Left Behind

Tears well up, as sadly, we part;
Things just couldn't go well for us...
Were we really so doomed from the start?
You scoff and say, "Don't make a fuss."

But how can I not after all
After all we've been through, so much
So much happiness, sadness, anger...
You tossed me aside much like a crutch

...And then there was no you.

You walked away then, so far away.
I waited and waited, for so long...
How long I stood torn, none can say
I envied you for being so strong

'Cause after all, who can do that?
Who can just walk from their ailments?
"A strong person," I answered myself.
And I was left here with my laments

For so long I waited; would you turn?
Turn around and come back to me?
I needed you; "for you I yearn."
Since then it's only shadows I see.

Uncertain shadows; fear, memories, doubt.
Literal shadows; sin, darkness, pain.
Left with just a sense of abandonment...
Without light. I'd never be the same.

I somehow gathered might and strength,
After untraceable time spent
Alone in darkness, for a great length.
Alone and battered by your torment

Your darkness could hold me no longer...
I turned my head and looked away;
Eyes skimming past the scars and scabs
For freedom, I broke your sway

And away I ran, away I ran,
Away form your ugly world
And my self-government began.
Away on the tides my spirit whirled

Out of the dark world you gave to me
Off along the untrodden path
Whereupon light blinded me so
For once I could see the aftermath

My world was a wreck, neglected so
Dull and so dead and marred
You had torn it asunder so long ago
But there was light, I did regard

...And then there was no you.

It scared me at first, I admit...
My world was empty; alone; hollow.
I stood still as time slipped unchecked
Without you... who would I follow?

No one - no you - I had no one.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath;
And found I could breathe, beneath my own sun...
My eyes opened, and only saw death

But resurrection is no myth,
So with rolled sleeves and a singing tongue
I took to tidying my neglected world
From some rubble I cleared, a shoot sprung

Then another and another,
And I caught myself smiling wide...
My hands let not my realm smother
As I flitted with my own stride

To save, grow, and preserve
The little world I had left behind
Until it made me satisfied that
Mine and yours no longer intertwined

It's a beautiful place now,
For me, all for me, just for me,
You cannot come here, you I won't allow...
For my special place here, you cannot see.

...For here, there is no you.
And for the first time in a long time,
That thought brings me so much relief.
You may stay in your world, beneath the grime.

I will not visit you, not at all,
For my world I've found is all I need...
And I'm free from yours, your little stall.
You let me go in your pathetic greed.

...And then there was no me.

I've finally left you behind;
I'm finally free.