Here With You

Don't leave us now
Don't back away
We've come so far
We've still much to say
So close your ears and listen up

Get back on your feet
We're here for you
So stick around
We'll help you through
So close your eyes and see

We're here with you
Don't turn away
Come back to us
And our embrace
Still your feet; you cannot run


Away I hide
For fear of you
I can't take this pressure
You put me through
It's too much to bear

The harder I try
The more forceful you are
So I'll open my eyes
I'll open my ears
And I'll open my mouth to breathe

My feet will move
Tearing away
Through dust, mud, water
Until I can run no more
...And hopefully, you won't be there....

Somewhere New, Goodnight

Eyes close, tonight; tightly shut
Now blackness becomes my world -
Twisting, churning in my vision,
Albeit holding fast and still.
My mind slips away from the dark
And colours fill my eyes, still shut.

Twirling, whirling, dancing scenes
Alive with colour and sound
Laughter, chatter, music, life
Familiar faces with grins
Welcome me home once again,
As I move on down the line.

Colours wash out and darken,
Now, a more familiar scene.
Sounds become dull and deepen
Dragging me in all the more.
Time swings backward and plays out
The same ol' thing, so new.

Everything shoots off, away
The image shattering like glass
Where once was the scene, so real,
Something new replaces;
Blood and gore, silence and bliss
Suffering revisted -

Oh, nasty habits, so crude
Visions of pain and bleakness
Where death and depression ensue
But to balance it out
A subconscious love, a need
Riddled with apologies

And then the alternate thoughts...
What may have been, could have been
But isn't and may never be.
It entertains me all the same,
And them - for them, indeed,
It is thought of only for them.

Minor regrets drift away
As the images replace
Rearrange, fade, rewrite -
Until satisfaction sets -
At least until another night.
My weary eyes now rest.

Goodnight.

Goodnight, my knight, my thief,
Goodnight, my prince, my demon,
My banshees and ghosts, my children,
Goodnight my golems and puppets,
Villains, monsters, heroines,
My underplayed - Goodnight to all.

Left Behind

Tears well up, as sadly, we part;
Things just couldn't go well for us...
Were we really so doomed from the start?
You scoff and say, "Don't make a fuss."

But how can I not after all
After all we've been through, so much
So much happiness, sadness, anger...
You tossed me aside much like a crutch

...And then there was no you.

You walked away then, so far away.
I waited and waited, for so long...
How long I stood torn, none can say
I envied you for being so strong

'Cause after all, who can do that?
Who can just walk from their ailments?
"A strong person," I answered myself.
And I was left here with my laments

For so long I waited; would you turn?
Turn around and come back to me?
I needed you; "for you I yearn."
Since then it's only shadows I see.

Uncertain shadows; fear, memories, doubt.
Literal shadows; sin, darkness, pain.
Left with just a sense of abandonment...
Without light. I'd never be the same.

I somehow gathered might and strength,
After untraceable time spent
Alone in darkness, for a great length.
Alone and battered by your torment

Your darkness could hold me no longer...
I turned my head and looked away;
Eyes skimming past the scars and scabs
For freedom, I broke your sway

And away I ran, away I ran,
Away form your ugly world
And my self-government began.
Away on the tides my spirit whirled

Out of the dark world you gave to me
Off along the untrodden path
Whereupon light blinded me so
For once I could see the aftermath

My world was a wreck, neglected so
Dull and so dead and marred
You had torn it asunder so long ago
But there was light, I did regard

...And then there was no you.

It scared me at first, I admit...
My world was empty; alone; hollow.
I stood still as time slipped unchecked
Without you... who would I follow?

No one - no you - I had no one.
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath;
And found I could breathe, beneath my own sun...
My eyes opened, and only saw death

But resurrection is no myth,
So with rolled sleeves and a singing tongue
I took to tidying my neglected world
From some rubble I cleared, a shoot sprung

Then another and another,
And I caught myself smiling wide...
My hands let not my realm smother
As I flitted with my own stride

To save, grow, and preserve
The little world I had left behind
Until it made me satisfied that
Mine and yours no longer intertwined

It's a beautiful place now,
For me, all for me, just for me,
You cannot come here, you I won't allow...
For my special place here, you cannot see.

...For here, there is no you.
And for the first time in a long time,
That thought brings me so much relief.
You may stay in your world, beneath the grime.

I will not visit you, not at all,
For my world I've found is all I need...
And I'm free from yours, your little stall.
You let me go in your pathetic greed.

...And then there was no me.

I've finally left you behind;
I'm finally free.