Does it even count?

When I tell you how I feel
And break down before your eyes
When I fall to my knees in agony
Does it even count?

When you turn to look away
Deaf to my cries and pleas
Unaware I'm even there
Does it even count?

When I break down, shut down
And turn all feelings off
To turn away from your betrayal
Does it even count?

When you act as if you've never seen me
As if my feelings were never there
While pretending yours never were, too
Does it even count?

When we act as though nothing is wrong
All while knowing nothing is okay
When we face away, one in sadness
Does it even count?

You've blocked all this from your mind
And your heart;
I've blocked all this from memory.
Does it even count?

The feelings you felt, and words I've said
This silent agreement to never agree
That relationship...
Did it ever count?